It's been a while again

Since I last updated. The thing is I'm going through a somewhat rough period lately.School has been a partial problem, but I fotunately finished the semester with the grades I had hoped for.
Refering to the other stuff... I have to be quite patient and understanding... not everybody can be in a good mood, so I have to face and accept everybodys feelings and states of mind.It's not that it's disturbing me, not at all, but I've felt bad hearing some stuff lately and I've had to make an effort to ignore and go on.
I've recently passed through a crisis time again, with panic attacks and feeling anxious most of the time, worring myself over every little thing...Luckly, that's gone now... I have to wait three more days till my dear comes here again... I'm sure that's going to be where my problems end and I'll be starting to feel better again.

I have also recently discovered how much I hate messenger and sometimes! my mobile phone.The messenger thing... words are always complicated and by using the inapropriate words, you can confuse someone or be missunderstood... and that's where the problemes start.I'll stop using it for a while...
To my mobile phone I am glued, so I can't leave it asside for now.








I'll be back again with some interesting updates about my activity.

Future

I have new resolutions for the future... I decided to change a little my way of life and see what is like to change.I am very lucky to have persons in my life who are there for me and who I love to death and to also have some oppotunities for constant evolving and making things even better. So I decided to be more mature about things and responsabilities in general.
I'm changing my meal (trying to eat more healthy for the fisrt time in my life), maybe work harder, complain less, have more strenght as others had when I needed them the most ... and most of all be myself :).


I just won't permit myself to let anybody down.




These come as late resolutions for the new year... it feels good to look ahead.

Winter Days

After holidays

It's been a time since I last updated... the thing is that I have been "disconneted" during the past 2 weeks. I had a beautiful holiday, refusing myself to connect with any thoughts related to my every-day life.My dearest came over and we've spend every second enjoying the time we have togheder. Living with him is just a bless. Words can't really describe this thing between us, and is really nobodys bussiness to know... the things I feel can't be put into words so easily.

We had a great time, Christmas at home, relaxing. New Years Eve was more complicated. We changed about 6 trains and busses and travelled half a country in 4 days.The night between the years has passed with 2 concerts (Prodigy + Europe),mezmerizing fireworks and some red wine :).
Then we spent 2 days in a mountain zone, beautiful places I can't wait to see again.
The trips have been extremly exhausting, but it was surely worth it.

I haven't touched the camera in a while also... I really spent these 2 weeks Living every emotion, and feeling everything... without thinking too much at what's happening in the rest of my life ...

I really hope I won't get into trouble because I haven't prepared anything for highschool, or my photography course and every other thing.I don't really care too much... I miss him dearly and this is what occupies my mind at the moment.


Everything I've lived lately gives me real confidence about the future and life as a whole. :)






I Live you, dear. :)